so nothing happend with me and john owell cuz me and jake are back together and trying it one more time cuz were in love and theres nothing anyone can do or say to change that so im like super happy i really hope thinks work out with us he means alot to me and i mean alot to him i dont know what was wrong with him but the old loveing sweet jake is back and im so happy he is but we both still have work to do if were going to work and its going to be hard but hes worth it and being with him is worth it he means so so so much to me and i hope everything works with us and stuff. so zac came back and lacey was super happy the first game is tomorrow oh fun lol well im going to bed so i can get up tomorrow and hang out with lori then go to band early and see jake and stuff well ok bye bye

so today was so fun. i got up and stuff... lol. no at 5 i go to go see my boyfriend play soccer in the rain he was cute.... then i went to say goodbye and we almost kissed but didnt. it was funny well the over team HATES lacey wow thatwas so funny. im not talking to lori at all right now i have to get my hair done and try to make it to band on time lol well if i dont make it on time i dont think i will go its not like i wan to see anyone but john and lacey for i few of u that dont know lacey is like my bestfriend and i love almost more than zac lol not i bet im wrong but anyway slowly getting over jake it hurts less as the days go on i just cant wit for it to all go away soon i hope maybe o well life goes on the only person telling me to hold on is zac and i want to hold on but im scared that if i hold on any longer im only going to do something i dont want to do because it hurts to much an di dont want to hurt myself... so well i thin k thats about it. my life has been hard so far and it was great for a year so i hope john can make it good or at less alot better than what it is. well good luck to lacey and zac. i hope eveything works out better than me and jake.

so i miss ajke kinda but im with john. who is like the sweetest 9th grader ever. i now have a jod i start tomorrow and 530 o well today. idk im happy for lacey and zac its about time they got together
there super cute and i love them both lacey more that zac lol. laceys like my new best friend she has helped me thought everything and i feel like shes the only friend that really cares everyone is like just get over it but lacey really stop and talks to me and if shes reading this she knows she can come over anytime and stay she just has to give me a call. love u lacey. well i have work in two hours and i still up i should go to bed.

so today at 1am a bat flys at my head it was in my house we had to get it out it hit my fan. so it was super fun. i stayed the night a lacys last night fun fun. shes becoming on of my best friends and it cool. well me and mat are going to stay friends. me and jake are OVER and never tring to fix things but o well life goes on. i really like john a kid in band im going to homecoming with him. hes super sweet and funny. plus he likes me alot. but im kinda scared because i dont want to jump in to anything to fast. me and jake just ended it two weeks ago. but all u can do it jump in and see if it works out. because if u dont try u might miss out on somthing that could have been somrthing big
well thats all i have to say tonight.

so yeah. truelove is bullshit. as i bet all of u know me and jake are done. he ended it on are one year. yeah it sucks and trying to git over it is the hardest thing. because i was really in love with him. but he didnt feel the same way. yeah it sucks. but shit happens right. well right now im trying to hang out with my friends so im not always thinking about him. i really wish school would start so i had somthing to do. owell then i would just have to see him everyday and that would suck to. i just cant win can i. i feel like i have lose so much. and now all he calls me is a slut and shit because somone was fucking sweet and told him i made out with mat T on the bus back from camp. yeah i would really like to know who did that cuz i have a thing or to i would like to say to them o well i have to go. so bye

so for like the last month me and jake have been fighting like were married or somthing. its just crazy and its really making me mad because i hate fighting with him because i love him so much. Mr. deal is gay and he better put me with jake on tag day or im going to be super pissed. but i dont think hes going to because when were together its like ur lips are stuck together. its kinda funny. idk me and jake need to work on alot of things if we are plaining to stay together for a really long time. everything at school is good but my 6th hour. i hate mrs.wheeler so much. have a E in her class and i have done all the work but shes crazy and can put in grades befor she gives paper back. so it says im miss alot and i have to get my grade to a C or my dad is going to take my phone away and thats pritty gay cuz i really like my pink phone its sweet. o and i have like a D+ in math so i need to get that up fast cuz i had like a D befor and i need like a c+ or i have to retake the gay class. and jake hasnt called all day and hes going though this weird thing were he wont kiss me and that kinda sucks idk and guys call us weird I DONT THINK SO. i think its the guy that are weird.

omg i have so much to say. well prom was fun and funny ummm Courtney and holly were cool. band was great. i still love jake. zac can be a a** hole somtime omg he made me so mad but o well. umm i dont have a lot of time so thats like a small summery of everything i want to say.

So yeah school was good. i was happy to be back. but my best friend lori
killed my phone so the screen was fucked but. but i when and got it fixed
it kinda sicks cuz i have alot of cute pics on there that i lost but o well
shit happins. i have homework to that sucks i dont really want to do it but
i need to cuz i only have a c in that class so i have to do it. well g2g jake just called

So i yelled at one of jakes friends and i didnt mean to but i think its bullshit because i said sorry
but she still runs her mouth and tells her friends what i said and crap.
i just think its gay because i said sorry to her she had no right to go say shit to her friends.
i maybe wrong to think its crap but thats how i see it.

hahah in my first entry i spelled people wrong. lol i didn't mean to. its stuff like that i was talking about i will miss spell little words and not mean to.

So this is first entry. Im going to let the peple who are reading this know my spelling isnt great. Im sorry but it never has been......Anyway i just got but from s/c. If i dont know what s/c means it sucks to be you o well. I have a great time but im happy to me back home. This is goingt o sound weird but i can wait to go back to school i miss my b/f.You will find i talk about him alot. Well i dont really have alot to say.so im done.

Wooo